Got in a tough pickle? Got caught red-handed? Was cheated on and now you want revenge?!



Rips the living shit out of that annoying wife/repressing figure you have in your life!

Short guide on how to use it:

1) Press the fuck it button on the back

2) Fully develop your independence

C) RIP THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF THAT BITCH (aka know as the Cunt step)

4) Then slowly drift away… and get an alibi.

I’ll stop throwing green out in the open and just be straightforward:


Explicit your distance to your relatives and make your last move towards full independence.

But make sure you show her, every single thing that led you to doing so.

Your mom will be buried in burden, however it might just be the only way to wake her up.

Strike Jed, it’s no longer time to suffer in silence.




Coucou, what should you do?

You know, I’ve noticed how often I’ve caught myself asking “What is [insert name here] purpose” and never found an answer. Even for myself. Certainly one should be able to answer that question to make the right choice when it comes to several things, but even though a lot of people don’t.
Continue reading

I think I’m coming to the start of my close. I think LOL.

So I decided to google for help cause I can’t decide my fucking major LOL.

I found this college forum, College Confidential, I think? LOL

And I found this thread thing.

Apparently, in college, Engineering majors tend to look down on Humanities majors. (Ethnic Studies is a humanities subject btw. Along with Visual/Performing Arts, History, English, Literature, Philosophy, Cultural shit, etc.)

Only because, like I’ve mentioned before, you can’t really get a good paying job with a Humanities major.

Kinda makes sense why I started rethinking about Ethnic Studies LOL.

Sean told me not to major in an area studies. Sean=Engineering major. LOLOL.

So, basically, what I read in the thread, it’s typical for Engineering majors to say to Humanities majors things like “What the pho are you gonna do with THAT major? LOL” or “You’re not gonna make a lot of money with that major brehbreh.” or “YOU’RE WASTING 4 YEARS LEARNING THAT SHIT. SHIT’S USELESS.”

But what most Engineering, Math, or Science majors don’t understand that Humanities subjects require a LOT of critical and analytic thinking.

It’s like, deep shit, breh.

Sure a Humanities major MAY seem like a useless major to Engineering majors, but they have a different way of thinking than Engineering majors. They think more critically, deeply, and with an emotional feel to it.

It’s like right brain and left brain.

Right thinks creatively, left thinks logically.

Engineering majors just seem to look down on Humanities majors only because of the job opportunities. There are a lot less job varieties for Humanities majors than Engineering majors.

The pay is a contributing factor as well ;/ (I USED BIG WORDS. I FEEL LIKE A COLLEGE KID ALREADY)

Engineering, math, science, and business majors tend to have those big-money jobs that pay for your fucking life.

Humanities have less choices, and their degrees are a lot less flexible.

They think that majoring in shit like Philosophy gets no where, and a major in Professional Writing is useless. An elitist Engineering major would say someshit like “PHILOSOPHY MAJOR? SHIT. YOU DONT NEEDA THINKING MAJOR DUMBSHIT.” or “PROFESSIONAL WRITING? JUST PUBLISH A FUCKING BOOK DUMBFUCK.” only because they don’t understand how difficult it is.

I’m not saying Engineering is difficult, because it is. But Engineering majors think that Humanities majors are easy fuckers.

But, both subjects are difficult.

I mean, an Engineering major probably couldn’t create something with deep ass meaning to it.
And a Humanities major probably can’t put chemicals together without fucking exploding.

They’re 2 subjects that have their own difficulty level, and both are difficult.

So, after reading about all this, I can still major in Ethnic Studies without worry. …Sorta LOL.

But, after a little research, I’m thinking I’m coming to a close LOL.

Right now, the decision on the top of my mental list is a major in Zoology and minor in Ethnic or Pacific Island Studies.

I know for sure I’m gonna go to graduate school for a Master’s in Dance Ethnology.

Best of both worlds :] At least there are a couple of Zoology jobs in Hawai’i, but on O’ahu mostly. So I won’t be living in Kaua’i like I wanted LOL.

I can still be an art teacher in middle or high school in the meantime, though.


I feel like I just wrote a fucking thesis. If this was a fucking essay, I’m sure as fuck this’ll get an A LMAO. I used big words and fucking pulled an argument LOLOLOL.

College is so fffing difficult @_@

I REALLY can’t decide my major.

I’m starting to lean towards Film and Animation now LOL.

It sounds hella fun to make indie films, and be in them. It would be fucking amazing to make a film, and/or even star in it, and present it in a Film Festival (which thankfully Hawai’i has @___@)

But, can I get a job making films strictly in Hawai’i? .___.

What other jobs can I get with a Film Degree? @__@ (Btw, in UHManoa, a film or animation degree would be called a Creative Media major.)

I mean, I know for sure a teaching job doesn’t really require you to have a degree in that specific subject, because my current math teacher was a ZOOLOGY major, and (I mentioned this before LOL) there’s a PE teacher in my high school that was an ENGLISH major.

Then I started thinking about the other subjects I like, but didn’t take into consideration for majoring.

Like, zoology.

I LOVE learning about animals. I still have those ZooBooks from when I was a kid, and I remembered I could never take my eyes off of them when I was a kid.

If I knew about zoologist jobs in Hawai’i, I probably would major in it. More than likely, it’ll be like 3rd to last on my list.

On my last resort list, this one’s at the top.

Thing is, it might get in the way when go for that Dance Ethnology degree in graduate school, since that needs Anthropology classes. At least Ethnic Studies can be relevant to Anthropology.

Speaking of Anthropology, I looked into the major requirements and courses for it, too.

I mean, I like Anthropology, but not LOVE it, and only specific parts of it. Like cultural Anthropology.

I don’t wanna learn about archaeology, physical anthropology, linguistic anthropology, etc. They don’t interest me @_@

Then I started looking into the music section just for the hell of it and found out they have a major for Hawaiian Music LOL.

Then I looked at the course list, and shit. It sounds hella sick LOL.

It involves Hula Kahiko, chants, and Tahitian ensembles as part of their courses LOL.

But since it’s a music major, it also requires music theory, music history, and recitals. Out of the fucking picture, brehbreh LOL.

If I had this much of a passion for music, I would be set for this LOL.

Then I started looking into Psychology, cause I always thought it sounded cool.

I mean, the subject IS pretty cool, it’s just it doesn’t interest me as much as other things. Zoology interests me more ;/

After that, I looked more into the dance major.

I was hoping I could major in dance and avoid taking Ballet and Modern dance technique classes, but I can’t @_@

But dance majors can format their electives to have a certain concentration, and it can be ethnology. But I still can’t avoid the technique classes LOL.

I mean, shit ;__; Can’t I major in dance with a focus on Tahitian and Hula? ;___; Or even Hip Hop? ;_;

I seriously would be dead set on majoring in dance if it said something like “[insert number here] of credits in any of the available technique courses, from Tahitian, Hula, Hip Hop, Ballet, or Modern.”

motherfuck. MOTHER-OF-FUCK. HAWAI’I, WHYYY? ;__;

Then there’s that “design-your-own-major”-Interdisciplinary-studies major thing in my last post you guys probably missed LOL.

That’s a possibility LOL.

Then I found a fashion degree, but I never noticed it cause it’s called “Apparel Design and Merchandising.”

Meh. Fashion’s aiight, not something I’d wanna career in. Plus, the fashion world’s really snobby LOL.

And if I would major in Fashion, I probably wouldn’t go to school for it in Hawai’i. I’d go to FIDM if I WERE to major in it, which is highly unlikely LOLOL.

Ugh. This is difficult LOL.

I think I just added zoology to my possible major list now. Which makes my decision harder ;___;

Interdisciplinary Studies Major …?

While I was looking through UH Manoa’s site to see what other majors they offered, I found Interdisciplinary Studies.

I just thought Interdisciplinary Studies were just courses about random shit, and I didn’t know they offered a major in it >.>

So the site says that if you choose to major in interdisciplinary studies, you talk with a counselor and “formulate your own major.”

So, I’m thinking it’s like a “design-your-own-major” thing?

It says that you talk with a special advisor, and you choose a focus, then put together classes from the catalog to create an equivalent of a major.

Then you submit a proposal letter to a staff member, and if it’s approved, you just designed your own major.

If it’s what I’m thinking, then I could “design” a Dance Ethnology major. Or something else along the lines of the shit I wanna do LOL.

I would probably do this, it’s just that I’m worried that my degree will appear as an “Interdisciplinary Studies” Degree, and that sounds horrible @__@

It sounds like I majored in nothing, and just chose that cause I didn’t know what shit to do.

If my degree will appear as a Dance Ethnology degree if I do this, and no one will know that I did a fucking Interdisciplinary Studies major shit, then I’m fucking set.

I need some comments about this. Guys? ;_;

And if anybody else happens to read this, do you know anybody who’s done this before? .__. Sounds so confusing. Will the degree appear as an Interdisciplinary Studies degree? Or will it be the title you chose your concentration on? D:

god. I always seem to get random comments from random people on my pointless shit, but never for the shit I need help with LOL.



This is so fucking difficult.

There are literally like no jobs available for someone with an Ethnic Studies degree.

I even heard about some guy majoring in Latin American studies, and his classes connected with Anthropology, PoliSci, History, and Language, but his degree doesn’t specifically say that, and he has a really hard time getting a job.

I don’t wanna go through that LOL.

I might stay away from Ethnic Studies. jewkla;jdsklfjasdfklj.

Then there’s Pacific Island studies with the same problem.

Then there’s Hawaiian Studies (which I won’t major in unless I somehow find out I’m like some part Hawaiian LMFAO) which more than likely has the most career outcomes in Hawai’i than any of my other major choices. A BA in Hawaiian Studies might not sound like much, but trust me, in Hawai’i, the careers are enormous.

In the mainland, a major in Hawaiian Studies may be a little more useless, but in Hawai’i, it can be really useful.

Fuck. @_@

Then Film and Animation come in, and I can’t stay in Hawai’i with those jobs.


My sister’s friend Manny explained that there was a P.E teacher in my school (NOTE IT FUCKING SAYS P.E. PHYSICAL. EDUCATION.) and he was a major in English. ENGLISH.

So I’m thinking whatever the fuck I major in, I can be whatever teacher >.> But idk adult-job-world, so I’m not taking that risk. That’s WAY too big of a risk LOL.


The only “good” degrees out there in the whole fucking college world that are worth it are fucking Engineering, Medical, Business, and Law degrees. Fuck all that shit. FUCK IT.

I feel like my only hope is dance. Or to suddenly become fucking Hawaiian LMFAO.


With dance, I can become a dance teacher, but since I’m a late bloomer, it’s hard for me to get enough experience to teach. Plus, I probably won’t even get paid all that much unless I fucking co-own the studio or someshit.

Ugh. aldfj;aeklfjadsl;fj.

Ethnic Studies major, high school/middle school art teacher, and dance teacher on the side? @____@

Is that my plan? @_______@ Ohmygod. why.

Or maybe I can serve fucking tables until I find a good enough job. lsdkfja;lewjfa;dskljg.

This is all types of bad. I’m like desperate for help. I needa talk to my academic counselor LOL.

Or if ANYBODY comes along this post, comment. And help. Please @____________@

Dance Contemplating.

I didn’t have dance practice today cause it’s Labor Day.







So a week or 2 ago, our director discussed the competition on Tahiti.

I HELLA wanna do it.

I’m just a beginner, but it’s a year down the line, so I’m obviously gonna have more experience by the time it comes.

I’m really unsure about doing it though ;_;

I wanna do it, but I dunno ;__;

It’s solos and couples only @__@ Which makes it harder for me to decide.

I have ideas for both categories if I do go though.

For couples, I was thinking of doing a dance with my sister.

But obviously not a lovey-coupley-dance you yaoi incest obsessed hoebags >.>

I was thinking of a dance about a brother and a sister. Like a family thing.

And for solos, I wanted to do something about the Mahu of Tahiti.

I posted about them before I think LOL.

Like a dance about the mahu and how they’re seen as both a man and a woman.

So in the dance, I was thinking of putting in women’s moves with men’s moves to represent the mahu.

I thought it kinda suits me :]

Even though I ain’t no fucking crossdresser or drag queen >.>

But I dunnooooo ;___;

Should I do it? ;___;

I want to ;___;

ask;ldfjas;lfj. butugh. $2000 plane tickets? ;___;

Yes? No? Help? ;__;