Day 1

Ok, so we were up to a great start. Only watching unplugthetv videos, no more access to any news or social media whatsoever and other shit. I felt like my day had way more variety in comparison to others, maybe because it’s just the beginning, but after I’m into this for a week I’ll know for sure.

Talking to a stranger today: Fernanda, a friend of a friend that rides back home from school on the same van as she does.

Yeah, it was random and it was funny. People thought I was flirting with her since she’s really attractive and all, but yeaaaaah. Looking back, what the hell was I thinking, really.

What will I do when I’m 19 years old: I see myself in College and I’m having a hard time picturing anything else. Too many damn variables and you can’t predict shit. I might have my own apartment by then, who knows if I’ll get my license that soon.

Although I am sure I’ll work more than a slave, after all it’s architecture. Unappreciated work for long periods of journey. Yaaaaaaaaay!

But moving on, I’d love to have my apartment in São Paulo by then, or staying here in this condo. My sister is right about the view, it balances out all the money we pay for this condo.

As for my reevaluated long-belief: over-analysis.

For long I used to believe that rational thinking was the best way to try and understand things and people, which it really isn’t. It is a method, but not always the most efficient one. Empathy does much more wonders.

And this was my first day.

BTW, fuck cold showers.

Today I had to vote for the first time in my whole life.

This wasn’t a very interesting Sunday, but it is now long past that boring Sunday to an ever changing Thursday.

It’s odd how things severely change once your point of view modifies itself. A few days ago and I wouldn’t be able to carry on with this post, should I call it so. (Although I believe it’s more rambling and metaphysical traveling rather than just a post)

Anywho, have a fucking beautiful day.

Fooling someone

You there, who lies behind the screen and watches from afar.

You don’t fool anyone with that judgmental attitude, nor that closed face.

Your nonchalance only depicts how broken you are inside, how much you are avoiding yourself.

Hate or love, which one would you rather have?

Get your shit together, trash it, and do something worthwhile your time.

Let go of that haunting past, to have your own future.

Pack up, go to Tahiti or someplace where you can relax.

Then realize how much you were doing all that crap to yourself.

You were the one fucking it up, after all.

Only then, you’ll be able to move on.

Smiles,

A foolish man.

The month of January – Away from MSN

Well, my experience turned out better than expected. I found out I’m able to live without that virtual leash chasing and dragging me back to it.

Perhaps it’s time it crossed the virtual plan, and became something physical?

Therefore, I state that in the month of February I will spend my days away from the TV (exceptions: Lunch), and will have a daily sun bath of at least 30 minutes.

As for the videos… I’ve changed my mind. My ideas keep suddenly shifting, so it’s hard to find one topic to focus on and initiate a conversation with you. I’ll just make’em whenever something shows up.

Unkz.

why not.

hi jed you have so many of these being posted so i add to it kinda…

what is original material in a post?

obvs we all don’t know.

 

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.

The Church of Hot Addiction- Cobra Starship

I Know I Know I Know- Tegan and Sara

Dance Hall Drug- Boys Like Girls

Something About Us- Daft Punk

Here (In Your Arms)- Hellogoodbye

I Constantly Thank God for Esteban- Panic! at the Disco

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? I had this friend from a Disney MMO (VMK, LOL) way back when I was in 5th grade or something. He was super cool and we played crap together like the bestest buddies but then VMK closed and I never saw him again. It would be nice just to meet.

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. hold it in place.

4) What do you think about most? myself

5) What does your latest text message from someone else say? no idea, it was probably something dumb.

6) Do you sleep with or without on? …what? if it’s hot I sleep in my undies but what exactly was this asking…

7) What’s your strangest talent? if I play a game long enough and get into it well enough I can retain information about it for a good while. I still remember a lot of tricks and things a learned player in Trickster would know…
8) Girls…. (finish the sentence); Boys…. (finish the sentence)Girls are manly; boys are womanly.

9) Ever had a poem or song written about you? I’ve had original poetry given to me… it was ‘romantic’ but who knows…

10) When is the last time you played the air guitar? probably a while ago, actually, I don’t do that too often LOL

11) Do you have any strange phobias? nothing stranger than what common people may fear.

12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? olives…

13) What’s your religion? What religion?

14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? looking around

15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? behind it, I hate pictures.

16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band? Cobra Starship

17) What was the last lie you told? “I hate you.”

18) Do you believe in karma? yus

19) What does your URL mean? for this hole of a blog… well we’re a bunch of losers.

20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength? sometimes I feel like I don’t have enough emotion; intelligence? iunno.

21) Who is your celebrity crush? I don’t have one.

22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping? It’s on my shit-to-do list.

23) How do you vent your anger? bitch about it to myself, write, or punch something

24) Do you have a collection of anything? I used to collect neckties, but then I was all “lolno I don’t even wear these anymore.”

25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? phone, I can multitask with a phone…

26) Are you happy with the person you’re become? 99% of the time

27) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love? anything loud; soft calming sounds

28) What’s your biggest “what if”? What if I tried harder to keep certain people in my life?

29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens? no; yes

30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? some pants.

31) Smell the air. What do you smell? apples

32) What’s the worst place you have ever been to? impoverished neighborhoods of India.

33) Choose: East Coast or West Coast? East, just because I live on the EAST SIDEEEE.

34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender? I don’t know.

35) To you, what is the meaning of life? have sex and keep live to see what comes of that.

36) Define: Art. whatever you make it to be.

37) Do you believe in luck? yeppers.

38) What’s the weather like right now? average for where I am in NC. personally, freezing.

39) What time is it? 6:33pm

40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? I have my permit and my own car; haven’t crashed yet… I’m an asian woman though…

41) What was the last book you read? Blood Work by Michael Connelly

42) Do you like the smell of gasoline? it’s okay; I don’t hate it.

43) Do you have any nicknames? Bonbon, Bonner, Cinnabon, Bunnie, Asian, Bonnibel… every other person seems to come up with a new one… Bonbon is the most common for me though

44) What was the last movie you saw? Immortals

45) What’s the worst injury you’re ever had? I sprained my ankle once… yeah.

46) Have you ever caught a butterfly? I used to have this badass butterfly net from the dollar store, I caught a lot and would release them at the end of the day. It was so fun.

47) Do you have any obsessions right now? not really

48) What’s your sexual orientation? Straight, but I have no problems calling and thinking chicks are hot… I’d never date another girl though.

49) Ever had a rumor spread about you? hooboy, yup.

50) Do you believe in magic? lol??

51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? naw

52) What is your astrological sign? Libra

53) Do you save money or spend it? I save it for a rainy day.

54) What’s the last thing you purchased? food, LOL

55) Love or lust? Love

56) In a relationship? no.

57) How many relationships have you had? I can still count them all on my fingers, I’m happy with this!

58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue? It’s pretty sad how far away my tongue is from my nose when I try to do this.

59) Where were you yesterday? In another town

60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? plenty of things… my room is pretty colorful when it comes to the shit in here, LOL

61) Are you wearing socks right now? ALL WINTER LONG.

62) What’s your favorite animal? Cows

63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? I can tell how people feel pretty easily, I just lie and say nothing about it…

64) Where is your best friend? at home, I’m sure

65) Spit or swallow?(; Swallow… did you know semen helps prevent tooth decay?

66) What is your heritage? Chinese

67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM? Stayed up with buddies talking

68) What do you think is Satan’s last name? Dinkleberg.

69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off? yes??? I think it’s safe to say yes here even though I don’t 100% get this one.

70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend? probably

71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? Save the dog, make sure I’m soaking wet still when I arrive at work, and maybe bring the dog with me if it’s nice. (:

72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid? A.) no, I don’t want to worry anyone. If I do tell anyone, it’ll be closer to the end of the month. B.) Try finishing my bucket list. C.)nah, death happens, I’m more curious if anything happens afterwards.

73) You can only have one of these things: trust or love. Love, ignorance is bliss.

74) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? You Are My Sunshine

75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number? it WAS 0614.

76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? being best friends and able to fk each other, no problem. 

77) How can I win your heart? don’t even try.

78) Can insanity bring on more creativity? yuppers.

79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? Say fk it all and go with the flow.

80) What size shoes do you where? 8-10, so funky, shoe sizes are…

81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone? Depends what I’ll do with my life

82) What is your favorite word? dear

83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word: heart. …blood. OH GOD TOO TECHNICAL BONNIE, TOOO TECHNICAL DOCTOR BITCH.

84) What is a saying you say a lot? “the hell” or “wat”

85) What’s the last song you listened to? Birthday by Quietdrive

86) Basic question: what’s your favorite color/colors? Yellow, Green, Red

87) What is your current desktop picture? It’s a picture of the brain, with the left all organized and realistic, and the right all expressive and colorful.

88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? No one, it’s not worth taking a life. Plus, what if them exploding got someone near them killed/injured? 

89) What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on? “Do you love me?”

90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do? Say hi, ask what they’re doing and treat them like house guests.

91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? Ability to heal people just by placing my hands over them and using SUPER COOL MAGIC POWERS.

92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? That one day with Zack.

93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? I won’t erase anything, no matter how shitty something might have been in my life, it shaped me to become what I am now.

94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be? I don’t know.

95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? Paris

96) Do you have any relatives in jail? We’re a good chink famiry!

97) Have you ever thrown up in the car? yup, but I was riding sick, I don’t get sick just being in a car.

98) Ever been on a plane? yar

99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say? Go for it!

I CHOOSE SHORTER ONES.

sup goys it’s Friday so IT’S ALL COO.

next week I only have Monday and Tuesday for school, then it’s Winter Break until January 3rd. :DDD

I’m happy and entirely prepared to skip those two days but I can’t so I’ll just enjoy this weekend as well as I usually do. ((:

and so I copy Jed’s question post thingies for shits and giggles.

THE SHORT ONES, THOUGH

`causelike these things are fun to do really, but I get so lazy. and lol why are most like 100 questions; I get too lazy typing…. WHATEVER HERE WE GO

1 Was your last kiss, standing up, sitting down, or laying down?  standing, and kind of a while ago
2 What’s the last thing you touched, other than your computer?  a glass of water
3 Could you spend a whole night with the last person you kissed?  yeppers
4 Is there someone you want to be with?  yuh
5 What was the last text you sent about?  I broke my phone like a month ago. I don’t know, penis? Probably penis. 
6 Do you have somewhere you hide things you don’t want anyone else to find? yes, my mind. there’s also a physical hiding spot I have for other junk of mine.
7 Is there anyone you have been avoiding lately?  no
8 When was the last time you talked to your best friend? …s  a.)two days ago b.)one hour ago  c.)15ish hours ago
9 Do you hate the last person you kissed? of course not
10 Have you ever kissed someone you weren’t dating?  no, unless I had some drunken blackout and did so before… I hope not

11 Do you still talk to the last person you kissed?  barely, kinda sucks
12 Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?  I don’t think so.

13 Are you a jealous person? I can be for five seconds, then I go back to my own derptown. 

14 If you could hug someone right now, who would it be?  Gran
15 Do you have any of your friends as relatives on Facebook?  I think I’m still my friend’s mother, LOL IT’S BEEN LIKE ANOTHER MANY MONTHS SINCE I’VE GOTTEN ON FB. 
16 Think of the last person who said I love you to you; do you think they meant it?  nope, it’s hard for me to believe if anyone really means “I love you” anymore.
17 Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are?  sure, why not?
18 Would you ever smile at a stranger?  People here smile at you for no reason as long as they have your eyes, I seem to have caught that habit.
19 Does the last person you held hands with mean something to you?  yeap
20 Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?  yessir
21 How often do you listen to music?  everyday
22 Do you wear jeans or trackies more?  jeans ALMOST EVERY SINGLE day
23 Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012?  nah
24 Are you a social or anti-social person?  social enough to work it
25 Can you recall the last time you liked someone?  easily
26 Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?  I’m not sure, we could try… I laugh at all the other shits in the world, so it could make up.
27 What was the last time you were teased about something?  last night
28 Are all of your friends in relationships?  nope. like 75% are though, LOL
29 Have you ever seen the last person you kissed without a shirt?  yes, I LIKE BEACH DAYS
30 Can you honestly say you’re happy right now? yes. (I FINISHED SOMETHING, YAY)

gogogo bit#2

1.Who’s the last person you talked to about sex? Dwight, I think?
2.Have you ever sat in the back of a police car?  I WANT TO, not for a crime or anything though, just to say I’ve done it. :D
3.Are you stubborn?  I can be.
4.If you took a drug test right now, would you pass?  I ate a poppy seed muffin for lunch today, is that still gonna show up now? Iunno, I wouldn’t have passed after lunch because of that though…
5.Who was the last person to be on a bed with you?  Kelly
6.Do you tend to hold a grudge?  nope
7.Who is the last person that pissed you off?  I have no idea, it’s been a while. it’s a good thing.
8.Whats something that bothers you about girls? some will do stupid things to get a boy, it’s not worth that most of the time, ladies.
9.What’s a fact about the last person that texted you? I broke my phone like a month ago, I don’t remember who I texted last. LOL
10.Who sits in behind you in your math class?  Jakub (yah-kuhb), that guy from London with the awesome accent.
11.Where is the biggest scar on your body?  on my pinkie finger, right where it connects to my hand. it’s about a centimeter long…
12.Have you ever been told you were amazing?  yar
13.Would you date someone who was addicted to drugs? most likely not
14.When was the last time you fought with your parents? never, I’m a good kid for the most part
15.What was the last alcoholic beverage you drank?  beer, it looked like apple juice. ;_;
16.What would your last name be if you married the last person you texted? my phone broke… I’m not sure I want to change my name for marriage though.
17.Do you care if people hate you for no reason? Yes, because there HAS to be a reason, otherwise that’s just stupid and I’ll worry about the hater.
18.Who was the last person to play with your hair?  Ame
19.Do you get along with girls?  yus
20.Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?  no, I believe this was asked in the other one, lololol
21.Who was the last person you kissed on the cheek?  Ame, she picked that greeting up from her mother, now I caught it. LOL
22.Who are your last 4 texts from? I don’t know it’s been a month++, dude…
23.Who was the last girl you talked to?  Maria
24.Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?  yah
25.Would you ever get plastic surgery?  no
26.Do you speak any other languages other than English?  yes
27.What was the last lie you told your mother? “The bus was late.” I went to CVS for  holiday cards instead. LOL
28.Have you ever had to call the cops on someone? I hope I never have to.
29.What was the last compliment you received?  “You’re so smart.”
30.Have you talked to a bitch today?  I TALK TO MYSELF, SO YUP. :D actually no.
31.Are your parents divorced?  no
32.Have you had sex today?  OH MY.
33.Do you judge​ people you don’​t know?​ all the time.
34.Are you a bad influence?​ I don’t think so.
35.Is there anyone that’s in love with you right now? I’m not sure about this, that’d be nice to hear though.
36.Would you ever live with any of your best friends?  YES
37.How many people in your life have you kissed? uh… one???
38.Are you photogenic?  That’s something that you should ask other people, I don’t really know
39.Does anyone know a really deep and dark secret about you? yes
40.Do you use birth control pills?  I might in the future, but no
41.When was the last time you went to a funeral?  last year sometime
42.Has one of your boyfriends best friends ever tried to get with you? ye 
43.What do you receive the most compliments on?  intelligence
44.Do you currently owe anyone money?  yes, but the bitch won’t take it back because I don’t really have to ;_;
45.Would you ever marry anyone for their money?  yeah, then divorce them shortly after, I’m sure.
46.Do you usually have a lot of drama in your life? nope
47.Who do you think is the most attractive actor?  I don’t know, I seriously don’t know many actors. I’d probably choose some random chink pop star though, huh…
48.How old is the last person you kissed on the lips? 16 now.
49.Have you ever walked away from someone who was yelling at you?  yepp
50.Are you 100% over the last person you kissed?  nuh
51.What’s one thing you don’t like about yourself? I put things off too often, or rather all the time.

52.Have you told anyone that you missed them lately? yes