Fooling someone

You there, who lies behind the screen and watches from afar.

You don’t fool anyone with that judgmental attitude, nor that closed face.

Your nonchalance only depicts how broken you are inside, how much you are avoiding yourself.

Hate or love, which one would you rather have?

Get your shit together, trash it, and do something worthwhile your time.

Let go of that haunting past, to have your own future.

Pack up, go to Tahiti or someplace where you can relax.

Then realize how much you were doing all that crap to yourself.

You were the one fucking it up, after all.

Only then, you’ll be able to move on.

Smiles,

A foolish man.

Words of regret, yet so reassuring.

This December 3rd has been reaaaaaaally twisted. I spent 1 hour at best at chez moi today.

Shitloads of training, shiiiitloads of walking.

Shitloads of eating, shitloads of laughing.

No longer under their shadow, I dictate my own path like I always did.

We’re just pawns meant for something bigger.

And as always, since I’m sleepy I’ll leave this, hoping it’ll be fixed someday just like us.

so hilariously bad. literally

I laugh at despair. I don’t know. Nothing really gets to me man, LOL.

If I’m angry, I’m only angry for like… nothing longer than an hour at most.

ANYWHOOZLE…

It’s late August. It’s time for SCHOOL.

 

EDIT: horyjunk this is longer than I thought I was typing, LOL SORRY.

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lol how…

THIS. THIS RIGHT NOW. It’s hitting me like a brick. :D

 

I just woke up.

It’s 8 AM.

…how did i even waht eevn iz lfie.

 

IT’S LIKE.. A SIGN…

because this is just a half hour later than what I’d wake up for school with.

I didn’t even go to bed early last night.

I was busy mmo hoaring and went to bed at 3AM or something.

 

And then when I come here and see the blog’s dashboard, we have 599 published posts.

…we also had 666 including drafts… but with this I fixed that.

This one is the 600th published post.

Seems like it was a year since the 500th, because it probably was.

I WANT TO SEE THIS BLOG LIVE WELL PAST 1000 POSTS, OKAY.

while I steal every milestone post, yupyup.

Well, maybe. LOL

 

Also my entire family is worse than me.

They’re all asleep still.

My little brother Jed is becoming me. He plays games on the internet ALL DAY (club pengiun lol), wakes up at like… lunchtime, and  goes to bed really late. HE’S 6, GOOD GOD.

Then my other little brother Edwin does whatever my dad does. Seriously he’d go to work with dad and do everything there too if he could. AND WHEN DAD IS NOT HOME, he’s like… being all engineer-y building dumb things like a house made of q-tips and playing cards (BOTH MINE, TYVM).

Gramps is awake at such funny hours. Everytime I venture into the kitchen, he’s there or some junk. LOL AND I GO TO THE KITCHEN LIKE EVERY FIVE HOURS. HOW…

Dad is asleep, was slowing my net down til 2AM downloading his illegally obtained movies. Movies of crappy china quality, cause yenno.

Mom is just… mom. SHE’S ACTUALLY BEEN AWAKE. She’s probably out on our back porch reading a book.

NO SERIOUSLY.

 

yeah.

I don’t know where I was going with this post.

 

I have today and tomorrow to slack off entirely…

THEN IT’S SCHOOOOOL TIIIIME.

Dude I’m not ready.

I haven’t even gotten my bookbag ready or bought ANY school supplies…

maybe I should do that…

like, today.

for real.

 

Maybe I should go to bed at a good time too.

Especially since I woke up at EIGHT today.

 

 

 

i can’t help but count the number of days every single time

Every time I see the date I count how many more days are left until the 25th.

 

Yes I start the school year on August 25th.

It’s a Thursday this year.

Guys I don’t wanna go to school. ; ;

Summer was too short.

MINT NEVER CAME BACK EITHER.

Or you know… she’s still gonna be here… yeah… just give it another week… again…

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Ten more days before I drown in regular sleeping schedules and school-related activities.

Yeah…

/crey crey crey

thank god they mail a schedule change request form with it

sup guys.

I got my schedule for my sophomore year in the mail today.

Right now it’s…

1st semester:

1st period: Latin II (for required foreign language– though I love it and I’ll be sticking with it all of high school)

2nd period: Health Science I (docta docta, give it to meeeee! …haven’t heard anything about this class really, but i’m actually pretty excited for it )

3rd period: Honors Algebra II (shoulda taken this freshie year, but it’s a-okay. it’s math.)

4th period:  Honors English II (heard it was mainly speeches. i got dis. )

2nd semester:

1st period: Horticulture I (LOLWTFNO. I’m requesting this to be swapped)

2nd period: Pre-Calculus (it’s math. ye.)

3rd period: Honors Civics and Economics (…I don’t know what to expect in this one)

4th period: Honors Chemistry (hell YES, perfect ending to my day omg)

 

I am pleased with the schedule.

Aside from the fact that I have horticulture in there, I mean really, what?

I had it as an alternative, yeah… like the fifth one down the line.

Psychology first, then  biotechnology (lol guess it got canceled/replaced), Ceramics, Anatomy&Physiology, Latin 3, and then… I don’t remember.

 

 

Apparently if I want to have my schedule changed before the first ten days of school, I should go to the student service office on August 9 or 10 from 8am-1pm.

These dates work for me though, since my school is on the way to the hospital and the hospital is holding a seminar  from 10am-12pm that I’m going to on the tenth. :D

 

now to decide just what to switch horticulture out with.

i mean, horticulture doesn’t sound too bad, but… I couldn’t go to that in the mornings and stay for 90 minutes, I COULDN’T.

 

also, when I switch out… all of this may or may not change, LOL.

it’ll be a nice surprise on august 25th, i guess.

I still have like four years though

LOL

trying to type this in like less than five minutes since I’m gonna be OUT DA DOOR soon.

I’M BARELY THINKING ABOUT COLLEGE HERE…

Although in two/three years I may be dying over it.

 

I still just want to go to a college in NC (IN-STATE IS CHEAPER, RRRRAAAGE).

Possibly a smaller school that’s just good in what I wanna do (MEDICINE??? MAYBE???…)

screw big schools…

or not.

IDK my life plans change every season.

 

Well I still do want to be in medicine somehow.

DOCTA DOCTAAA, GIVE IT TO MEEEEEe.

/shot

Okay I gotta go volunteer at the hospital now.

 

I HELPED AND POSTED JED, SO HERE.

btw i just get lazy.

I MEAN THIS IS A LOT OF TYPING.

yeah.

bye for now.